Wednesday, November 28, 2012


I know I have said this a thousand times, but I really have to figure out how to get on track. I need to learn how to balance a healthy lifestyle, a full time management position, family, and being a wife.

I had a little "AHA" moment this week. Had I stuck to plan for the 8-9 weeks that I have been back on Weight Watchers, I could have lost more than 20 pounds rather than the 5-6 I have lost. I've been having a really hard time sticking to it for the whole week. But I think having this little revelation just may help me to see the big picture. I know what I need to be doing, but it seems like 2 pounds a week is such a slow process. When in reality, if I were to lose two pounds a week for a whole year, that would be 104 pounds. That would put me just about at goal. Baffling, I know. (sarcasm).

I think it's just hard to see the big picture when things seem to be going so slowly. And to see the big picture when things like pizza and candy stand in your way. I am a relatively good cook. I enjoy my cooking and so does the hubs. I just need to see what I need to do and DO IT!

Plan, plan, plan then stick to it, stick to it, stick to it!

And even though I know that I am going to record a gain tomorrow, I am going to weigh in this week anyway!

And for your viewing pleasure (ha!), here are a few photos ranging from now back to 2004.

November 2012

Me and my grandpa in maybe 2006-2007. <3
High School. 2004.

Update: I'm a wife

I meant to post this update... Oh over a month ago. But I am not a wife!

P and I went to Vegas and got married. We didn't bring anyone with us or really tell anyone.

It wasn't anything special and I was a little disappointed. Just the fact that I was marrying my best friend brought tears to my eyes though, so it can't be that bad! The marriage is what matters, not the wedding. I've heard some rumors that my mom is going to throw us a reception, although I don't know anything about it.

I'm happy to be married and start something very special with a very special man.

Of course, I have to make a funny face.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

My Reasons

My Reasons For Losing Weight
  1. To have a baby.
  2. To feel good about myself.
  3. To be able to do more physically.
  4. To be able to run.
  5. To set a good example.
  6. To be a better wife.
  7. To keep up with the dogs.
  8. To do my job more efficiently.
  9. To have more energy.
  10. To have a healthy lifestyle.
  11. To have less bad days.
  12. To look good for the hubs.
  13. To reduce hip and knee pain.
  14. To work on changing my view of myself.
  15. To live a long healthy life.
  16. To be a good (future) mom.
  17. To be able to do more.
  18. To improve my relationships.
  19. To hike.
  20. To potentially get off my anxiety meds.

Monday, November 26, 2012

Mental Struggles

I've been back at Weight Watchers for about 8 weeks now. My sister and I joined together. But let me tell you, I have no drive to stay on plan. I don't really know what the deal is at all. Normally the first 6-8 weeks would be easy... Then I would start struggling. But not this time.

We got a stand up freezer so that I could start cooking and freezing, but I don't eat the freezer meals. I have no clue why. All I want to do is eat junk and fast food. I guess this is where the reality that losing weight is a mental struggle comes in. I know that I am just sabotaging myself. I know what I should be doing and I choose not to.

I even have one of my employees on plan with me now. She's done amazing and her will power is astonishing. I can't believe how strong she's been. I need to start taking cues from her.

I filled out my weekly handout from the last meeting I attended with all of my goals. I made the full list of 20. I need to start looking at that every day and remembering why this is worth it.

I want to start making a workout calendar too. I can't seem to get my butt up to do anything. I know that would help me stay on track and feel a whole lot better. But the motivation is not there. I have a whiteboard on my closet that I used to use for just this purpose. I want to make it into a calendar and start planning a whole month's worth of workouts starting in December. Then hopefully I can stick with it.

Question: What helped you get through the mental blocks of losing weight?