MIA

Sorry that I have been MIA for the last week or so. I haven't really had a lot going on because all I've been doing is sleeping. I've been having a really hard time staying awake and have been asleep as early as 6:45pm and as late as 9:15pm all week. And then I sleep through the entire night without waking. I'm not sure if this is a side effect of my new medication or not. I should probably look that up.

At my weigh in on Saturday I lost 0.6lbs. That sucks, but it's my own fault. I haven't been sticking to the plan very well and I haven't worked out at all. I'm hoping to get myself moving this week. If I can only stay awake...

That's pretty much the extent of my life since I've been gone. I hope I have more interesting things to tell you all this week!

Home Stuffs

Have I ever mentioned that I bought a house in 2011? Well, I did. And it's been a big huge change. Somehow I went from a 500 sq ft apartment to a 1600+ sq ft house and have way more clutter. This weekend I decided to start going through things and organizing. I also decided to take a couple trips to some thrift stores. I got some things to finish up the guest room. I just need to get new bedding in there and it will be set. We never have guests, but it's so cute in there. It's all outdoor themed.

Because I am excited, I decided to share some photos of the bedroom. I just have one wall that needs some work. It's empty. I am thinking of painting it, getting a tapestry, or some of those wall stickers.

I got some other things as well, but I'm not done with them all yet. Or even have ideas for some of them.

And for your viewing pleasure...

Photos taken by yours truly.

P bought this for me. <3

I searched for a year for that deer head. I really wanted a moose that was a little different, but this works.

P got me this moose pillow pet too. I just love moose.

I took this photo of my friends as well at Golden Gardens.



Weigh Day #2

I had my weigh-in this morning and it didn't go as well as I would have liked. I lost 0.8lbs. That's a total of 4.2 pounds. It's better than nothing and way better than a gain. And I went out to dinner last night. I probably shouldn't go to dinner the night before weigh-in. We had Mexican and I got the usual. I only had a few chips and I only ate part of my meal.

That's all I have for now. I just wanted to give a little update on my weigh in.

Twas a Bidding War

I've never really used Ebay before. A few years ago I bought a phone that I ended up not being able to use. I bought it at the "Buy It Now" price. That is the extent of my Ebaying.

I've really wanted a Garmin Forerunner 305 for a while. Back a couple of months ago when I was ready to start running I looked into it. I did not want to spend tons of money on it so I've been longing after one for months.

This week I decided to take the whole Ebay thing seriously. I recruited P to do it all on my account because I'm not good with that kind of stuff. On Monday we found one that was crazy cheap and set out to bid. Every time we bid, we were outbid immediately and I was sad. After a fierce bidding war of $1 at a time, we were FINALLY in the lead! And then in the last 5 seconds as we were trying to get in our very last bid... We LOST it! I was really disappointed.

I kept looking and on Tuesday I found another one in the right price range. I decided to handle this one on my own. I put in a bid and was shortly outbid. I then decided to wait until the end, like P said I should, and ended up in a much less stressful and low-key bidding war.

It came down to the final seconds and then it was MINE! I only ended up paying what my limit was for the one we lost out on. So I got it for about $70-$100 less than what I could find online and $60 less than Garmin's suggested price . I am so happy with that! I can't wait to get it in the mail and put that baby to use.

Confessions Of A Former Cat Lady

My BF calls me a BAMF. And I had to ask what that meant.

I almost didn't graduate high school.
I have no real desire to go to college, although I've gone on and off over the years.

I've always dreamed of being the crazy cat lady.

Until I met Preston, I honestly thought I was destined to be alone.


I don't think I'm very good at being in a relationship, but I try.

I hold in my feelings.

I don't deal with my emotions well.

I've lived in a studio apartment.

I prefer to live alone. Roommates were just not for me. Now I live with P and it's challenging.

I love comedies.

I used to be obsessed with Tupac and had what looked like a shrine in my bedroom.
Yes, I did believe all of the conspiracy.

No, I don't believe them anymore.

I love Justin Bieber, but I don't own any of his music.
I've never been on a go kart, four wheeler, etc.

They scare me.

I tell EVERYONE that I don't want kids, but I really do want them.

BEFORE I'm 30.

I think this might be because I had always thought I'd end up alone.

I can get self destructive.
I never wanted to get married until I met Preston.

I believe he is my soul mate.

I have always been overweight.
I have always been self conscious.

I've never really felt like people really liked me.

I used to think I was some type of gangster.

And then I got adorable.

And then I got really fat.

And this isn't even the worst of it. I hid from cameras.

And then I got pretty fit (for me).

And I used to have really long hair. Thinking about it makes me cry.

And then I got fat really fat again.

And now I'm trying to get skinny.

And this leaves is where we are today.

I hope you stick around too see what happens!

Don't Take It Personal

In my loudest, most horribly beautiful singing voice:

"It's just one of those days that a girl goes through
When I'm angry inside,
Don't wanna take it out on you.
Just one of them things.
Don't take it personal.
I just wanna be all alone
And you think I treat you wrong.
Don't take it personal
Baby, baby, baby, baby, baby.
Don't take it personal."

Yep, that's my song of the day. I don't have any reason to  be feeling this way, but it just all of a sudden hit me shortly before lunch time. Maybe I'm just in a funk.

On a brighter note, I called my insurance provider today and confirmed that counseling would be covered. Then I researched a few providers and found one that I am going to give a try. I am just waiting on her calling me back. I hope this will be a step in the right direction. And I got my medication to start today. Hopefully things will start going a little better.

And I'm off to hang out with

THIS GIRL

And these guys

And maybe a few of these

Feel The Burn

I may have over did it on yesterday's workout. As the day has gone on, I can barely stand from sitting, I'm walking funny, and my upper body is starting to hurt too. Go big or go home: I guess so! Let's just say that I didn't do any working out today because I feel like death!

As you may remember from the other day, I've been really letting my weight control my life. Well I've decided to take some steps to remedy that. I am putting on more makeup again and I automatically felt better. Today is day 3 in full makeup. I've also been making more efforts with the BF to show him a little more love and appreciation, but it's not working in my favor. I'm not going to give up just yet though. I've also been doing more around the house instead of putting it off. And I got that workout in yesterday. These all may seem like little things, but they are all going to add up to big changes. Another step that I took to get back to myself was go to the doctor today.

Me. Making an effort.

I scheduled this appointment because I have been having a lot of anxiety issues and sleep issues. As you may remember from (Here), I am a creepy sleeper and talk all night long. This results in my never feeling rested no matter how much I sleep. I don't know if this is related to my anxiety issues, but I'm starting to thing that it may be. I've also been having horrible shooting rib pains for months. They mostly happen at night. They are so bad that I can't move and I can barely take a breath. I am starting to believe that this may be related to the anxiety as well.

My doctor had to poke at my ribs and didn't find anything. Let me just tell you that I DESPISE having my ribs touched in any way. I've always been a freak about it. I can't even lay down without covering them. If P ever touches them, it's the end of the world. I have no clue why but I've been like this as long as I can remember. My doctor appointment was torture.

After talking with doc a bit, she thinks that the events of the last year are starting to catch up with me. You can read a little bit about that (Here). I am leaning towards agreeing with her. She is going to put me on some anxiety meds and would like me to get counseling. My speech therapist also suggested this. I do hold things in and try not to deal with them, so I think I might actually listen and find a counselor. Everything that has gone on over the last year is a lot for anyone to deal with.

She also tested my thyroid again. She thinks that I have hypothyroidism. In November I was bordering on it. Last year I was told by my allergist that I have an autoimmune disease attacking my thyroid that would eventually kill it. I was tested in November and they told me it all came back normal. When she looked again today, she said their lab does things a little strangely and I am technically bordering on hypothyroidism.
She also tested me for arthritis. I've always had something like arthritis in my hands. And now I am having serious knee pain. I think that she did some other tests too and I have the fatty bruise to prove it.

And to move on from the heavy stuff, I thought I would share with you why I am not going to try to be a food blogger any time soon. This week I planned out all of our dinners, just not what day we would eat them. This planning is making dinners a breeeeeze!

On Sunday, I decided I was going to put my eggplant (which I've never tried before) to use and make some eggplant pizzas. I couldn't find any recipes that totally caught my interest, so I just took a bit from each and threw together my own idea.

I used two eggplants, a mix of FF cheddar and FF mozzarella, some onions, peppers, pizza sauce, and turkey pepperoni. They weren't HORRIBLE, but definitely not the best thing that I have ever ate. I think I have now decided that I do not like eggplant.

Eggplant Pizza. Me. :-/

And tonight I decided to make a classic with our turkey burgers. Hungry Girl Bacon N Cheese Bell Pepper Skins are always a hit with the BF. He ate about 3/4 of the plate. It uses 2 bell peppers, green onions, 6 strips turkey bacon, 3/4 cup FF cheddar, and some sour cream on the side. Love love love these. If you want the whole recipe, let me know.

Hungry Girl Bacon N Cheese Bell Pepper skins.

I am feeling good that I am making steps towards reaching my happy place, that I have things planned out this week, and that I am FEELING THE BURN.

And to leave you with a little low quality cuteness for the night, I share this that I took as I wrote this post. (Yes, that is a Christmas blanket on my bed. Don't judge me.)

My loyal followers.