You Can Go Hard Or You Can Go Home

Ah, Sunday. A day that I try not to leave the house if at all possible. But it also means that tomorrow is back to work...

I slept in pretty late today. I sat around on my butt for a while watching SVU. I know there is a "marathon" on every single weekend, but I still have to watch. :) After a while, I decided that it was time to get off the big ole booty and get my sweat on.

This week I started week two of the SparkPeople 5KYourWay Plan. I did my three days of it last week and it was starting to get a little easier to get through the minutes of running. Now granted, I'm not going fast at all. It's probably a normal person's walk. But it's a step in the right direction for me.

This week called for 3 minutes walking, 1.5 minutes running. Repeat 5 times, for 6 times total. I did pretty good... Until the fifth run. I made it about 1 minute and 5 seconds before I had to stop running and bring the speed down. I probably could have made it through those last 25 second in the fifth interval, but I didn't. Womp womp.  I'm not saying that it wasn't hard. But I was pushing through it.

Definitely not the best time, but I'm getting there!

After I got off the treadmill and caught my breath for a minute, I did this workout that I found on Pinterest today. It was good and hard (that's what she said, what's up Mama Laughlin). I did two sets of the basketball jump squats, the Russian twist, and the sit n' reach. It was hard and I had to modify, but I felt really good after I did it.

Right now P and I have some dinners for this week in the crockpot. So I am hoping that I can stay on track and keep workin' it.

And just for an extra dose of cute to end this post, I'll leave you with this.

5KYourWay: Day Two

It's been a long day. My aunt passed away on January 18 and her services were today and yesterday. I've been at my grandma's quite a bit since my aunt's passing. We have one more thing to get through tomorrow (a burning) and things should get back to normal. Although I don't think things will ever be normal without her beautiful smile and warm hugs.

I didn't really sleep at all last night. I actually ended up leaving P and going to the guest room because I was just that restless. It didn't help much. So I came home and took a nap. I was supposed to do day two of the 5KYourWay plan and I thought that my nap would stop me from completing day two.

But it didn't. I got on the treadmill and busted it out. It's only the second day and it's already getting easier. And in the process I found out that my treadmill is more functional than I thought. There are speeds (1-10) and then there are also plus/minus buttons. In all the months that I've had the treadmill, I always thought you could only go up by a full speed. Come to find out, if you push the plus/minus it brings you up by .10 rather than 1.0.

I'm proud of myself for completing this at 10pm. Normally I would just say screw it. Small changes.



Not the best, but it's a start. 1.55 miles in 30 minutes.

When I got done with the walk/jog I did some squats, then just a little arm work with some 5 pound weights. I'm not really sure what to do but I did what I could think of. I also made a point to stand in squat position. I'm still burning up because the treadmill is in my bedroom where it's warm!

Red face, beastly sports bra. (Enelle)

I'm thinking about starting the 30 Day Shred as my cross training days. But I feel like I may not be able to walk when I'm done.

That's all for today folks!

Cold Hard TRUTH

For some reason I can't get photos to upload normally. I tried something different on this post and it seems to have worked. 

Family Dinner

P and I took the dogs on another off-leash walk today. They have so much fun and I love to watch my Mabel explore and my Sergeant not leave my side. He is so funny. He won't go far from me before he has to turn back around and check in. It just cracks me up. We like to throw sticks for them and tennis balls. As you can see, they get a little nuts.

Walk

They also like to cuddle. Check this out, melts my heart.

Cuddle Buddies

And now on to the cold hard truth. I weighed myself this morning and I have gotten to a new all time high. I hate to admit that I just keep gaining and gaining.I know I have to do something. I want children and I can't have a baby at this weight. I want to be healthy and happy, but getting the motivation has been so hard. I've gotten a few workouts in lately. But my eating has not been great. I know that it's not hard, but the mental shit is. I am a self sabatoger and I know it. I've got to get the right mind set. So here is the number: 257. I hate to even type that number, but maybe if I put it all out there it will get me on track...

Baby Steps

I'm deciding today to start looking at the little steps I am taking rather than the big steps I am missing. I have worked out more in the last few weeks than I have in months. P and I like to take the dogs out to run off leash on this little wooded trail near my work. They go nuts and tucker themselves out. And we get in a nice hour long walk. The trail is really long and uneven ground, so it makes for a good walk.

This weekend we had "Christmas dinner" with my mom and siblings. Every year in January we go to Buca di Beppo as a family (no kids!) as our Christmas gift from my mom. This time is the best gift that I could ask for. We sit at the Pope table which always brings up lots of conversation in my semi-Catholic family. I don't know how my mom came up with this idea, but it's something I look forward to every January!

Other than that, it's been a pretty low key weekend. I have today off. I am hoping to get this booty on the treadmill for a little 5KYourWay work. Now let's see if I can really complete it.

I also signed up for a virtual 5K for Friday. I've never done anything like this, so I'm kind of excited!

AHA!

I know I have said this a thousand times, but I really have to figure out how to get on track. I need to learn how to balance a healthy lifestyle, a full time management position, family, and being a wife.

I had a little "AHA" moment this week. Had I stuck to plan for the 8-9 weeks that I have been back on Weight Watchers, I could have lost more than 20 pounds rather than the 5-6 I have lost. I've been having a really hard time sticking to it for the whole week. But I think having this little revelation just may help me to see the big picture. I know what I need to be doing, but it seems like 2 pounds a week is such a slow process. When in reality, if I were to lose two pounds a week for a whole year, that would be 104 pounds. That would put me just about at goal. Baffling, I know. (sarcasm).

I think it's just hard to see the big picture when things seem to be going so slowly. And to see the big picture when things like pizza and candy stand in your way. I am a relatively good cook. I enjoy my cooking and so does the hubs. I just need to see what I need to do and DO IT!

Plan, plan, plan then stick to it, stick to it, stick to it!

And even though I know that I am going to record a gain tomorrow, I am going to weigh in this week anyway!

And for your viewing pleasure (ha!), here are a few photos ranging from now back to 2004.




November 2012

Me and my grandpa in maybe 2006-2007. <3

 

High School. 2004.

 

Update: I'm a wife

I meant to post this update... Oh over a month ago. But I am not a wife!

P and I went to Vegas and got married. We didn't bring anyone with us or really tell anyone.

It wasn't anything special and I was a little disappointed. Just the fact that I was marrying my best friend brought tears to my eyes though, so it can't be that bad! The marriage is what matters, not the wedding. I've heard some rumors that my mom is going to throw us a reception, although I don't know anything about it.

I'm happy to be married and start something very special with a very special man.

Of course, I have to make a funny face.

My Reasons

My Reasons For Losing Weight

 

1. To have a baby.
2. To feel good about myself.
3. To be able to do more physically.
4. To be able to run.
5. To set a good example.
6. To be a better wife.
7. To keep up with the dogs.
8. To do my job more efficiently.
9. To have more energy.
10. To have a healthy lifestyle.
11. To have less bad days.
12. To look good for the hubs.
13. To reduce hip and knee pain.
14. To work on changing my view of myself.
15. To live a long healthy life.
16. To be a good (future) mom.
17. To be able to do more.
18. To improve my relationships.
19. To hike.
20. To potentially get off my anxiety meds.