AHA!

I know I have said this a thousand times, but I really have to figure out how to get on track. I need to learn how to balance a healthy lifestyle, a full time management position, family, and being a wife.

I had a little "AHA" moment this week. Had I stuck to plan for the 8-9 weeks that I have been back on Weight Watchers, I could have lost more than 20 pounds rather than the 5-6 I have lost. I've been having a really hard time sticking to it for the whole week. But I think having this little revelation just may help me to see the big picture. I know what I need to be doing, but it seems like 2 pounds a week is such a slow process. When in reality, if I were to lose two pounds a week for a whole year, that would be 104 pounds. That would put me just about at goal. Baffling, I know. (sarcasm).

I think it's just hard to see the big picture when things seem to be going so slowly. And to see the big picture when things like pizza and candy stand in your way. I am a relatively good cook. I enjoy my cooking and so does the hubs. I just need to see what I need to do and DO IT!

Plan, plan, plan then stick to it, stick to it, stick to it!

And even though I know that I am going to record a gain tomorrow, I am going to weigh in this week anyway!

And for your viewing pleasure (ha!), here are a few photos ranging from now back to 2004.




November 2012

Me and my grandpa in maybe 2006-2007. <3

 

High School. 2004.

 

Update: I'm a wife

I meant to post this update... Oh over a month ago. But I am not a wife!

P and I went to Vegas and got married. We didn't bring anyone with us or really tell anyone.

It wasn't anything special and I was a little disappointed. Just the fact that I was marrying my best friend brought tears to my eyes though, so it can't be that bad! The marriage is what matters, not the wedding. I've heard some rumors that my mom is going to throw us a reception, although I don't know anything about it.

I'm happy to be married and start something very special with a very special man.

Of course, I have to make a funny face.

My Reasons

My Reasons For Losing Weight

 

1. To have a baby.
2. To feel good about myself.
3. To be able to do more physically.
4. To be able to run.
5. To set a good example.
6. To be a better wife.
7. To keep up with the dogs.
8. To do my job more efficiently.
9. To have more energy.
10. To have a healthy lifestyle.
11. To have less bad days.
12. To look good for the hubs.
13. To reduce hip and knee pain.
14. To work on changing my view of myself.
15. To live a long healthy life.
16. To be a good (future) mom.
17. To be able to do more.
18. To improve my relationships.
19. To hike.
20. To potentially get off my anxiety meds.

 

 



Mental Struggles

I've been back at Weight Watchers for about 8 weeks now. My sister and I joined together. But let me tell you, I have no drive to stay on plan. I don't really know what the deal is at all. Normally the first 6-8 weeks would be easy... Then I would start struggling. But not this time.

We got a stand up freezer so that I could start cooking and freezing, but I don't eat the freezer meals. I have no clue why. All I want to do is eat junk and fast food. I guess this is where the reality that losing weight is a mental struggle comes in. I know that I am just sabotaging myself. I know what I should be doing and I choose not to.

I even have one of my employees on plan with me now. She's done amazing and her will power is astonishing. I can't believe how strong she's been. I need to start taking cues from her.

I filled out my weekly handout from the last meeting I attended with all of my goals. I made the full list of 20. I need to start looking at that every day and remembering why this is worth it.

I want to start making a workout calendar too. I can't seem to get my butt up to do anything. I know that would help me stay on track and feel a whole lot better. But the motivation is not there. I have a whiteboard on my closet that I used to use for just this purpose. I want to make it into a calendar and start planning a whole month's worth of workouts starting in December. Then hopefully I can stick with it.

Question: What helped you get through the mental blocks of losing weight?

Day One

After a seriously crazy last few weeks involving a hotel room fire, a family vacation, two sick cats, and much more I am finally starting back on Weight Watchers. I am on track for the day and hope to stay that way. At this point I am just going to go with doing things on my own at home and not go to meetings. I know that they are helpful, but truth is: I don't want to get up at butt o'clock on a Saturday morning to make it to my favorite meeting.

I weighed myself this morning and I was very unhappy with what I saw. I weighed in at 248.8. This is a new all time high for me. I am absolutely disgusted. I did a pretty good job at maintaining my (still disgusting) weight for the last few months. I know what I need to do and I know that now is the time... Especially if I want to have babies soon. I have contracted a serious case of baby fever after loving on two adorable twin boys over the weekend.

I am hoping to get into a really good routine of prepping and cooking on Sundays. I know that's what works for me.

Now if only I can stay FOCUSED!

Exciting Things

Yes, yes. I know my blogging skills blow. I have been so crazy busy lately that I just haven't even thought about it. Nor have I thought much about being healthy. But I have lots of big news and big things coming up in my life that will hopefully help me get on track again...

First off, Preston and I got engaged! It's been almost two weeks now and feels like pure stressful bliss. There's a whole lot of pressure mounting and I'm thinking we might just end up eloping and then having a reception afterward. Neither of us like to be the center of attention and a big wedding is just not in our future. I am having my sister take engagement photos this weekend, so look for those coming soon. They are going to be the cutest things ever. P and I have some awesome ideas together.

The second big news is that I have finally gotten P to agree to try for a baby... Sometime NEXT year! He's always been on the fence about because he thinks we're too young yet. But he has finally agreed and I am over the moon. I'm not sure if I'm really even ready, but just to know that he is on board is awesome.

I am going to try to get back on WW and get P to get healthy too. I want to have a healthy pregnancy and a healthy new life with my future husband and future child.

Stay tuned for more updates...

Elimination

I'm still here and I'm still alive... But I'm definitely not on track. I've been really struggling with getting on track and have basically sucked for the last month. I haven't tracked, I haven't worked out, and I've ate crap. This may explain my disappearance.

I've also been having some serious tummy issues. I've been having these same issues for a couple of years now, but they just keep getting worse and worse. I've been tested for food allergies and I don't have any. My stomach always feels like it's twisting around itself. And sometimes it's so bad that I can't even concentrate.

I know a couple of my aunts did an elimination diet to pinpoint what your stomach is sensitive to. I had my mom ask my aunt how she did it. She's on the east coast, so I only talk to her when she's here. She's done it. This is what she said:

"She should begin by COMPLETELY eliminating the top 10 major allergens:

Dairy

Soy

Peanuts

Corn

Wheat

Gluten

Eggs

Tree nuts (almond, cashew, pecan)

Shellfish

Sesame

After a week of NO allergenic foods, she can do a 3 day detox/ cleanse

This can be purchased at Vitamin shop. Or drink water with juice of 1/2 lemon, juice of 1/2 lime, and 1T real maple syrup 3x/day.

Follow this with 2 "clean" salads in between. Clean means organic produce and no dressing.

Now she is ready to add in foods. I food at a time. 3 days. Observe for reactions. If they don't bother her stomach, keep eating and add the next food. Etc until you isolate the culprit

My feeling is if her gut is aching, it is gluten or just wheat and/ or dairy.

Gluten issues are huge among the Irish."

This sounds like it is going to take more work that I really want to put in, but the alternative is to live with horrible stomach pains forever. I'm thinking about giving it a go.

Have you ever done anything crazy like this?